The Truth Comes Out

It's not so complicated after all. Steve isn't attracted to me. He never was.

He lied.

Because he thought that's what I wanted to hear. Because it made him have control of the situation. Because that's what he would have wanted to happen with Becca. Because he thought it would make things easier. Because he wanted to. I don't know. I don't remember. I was drunk when we talked about it.

I cried. I cried so hard, because I felt so stupid for thinking that he had even the tiniest amount of feelings for me. Or that he had at one time. And all I could think about was my stepdad who was always mean to me and made me feel stupid all the time. I could just see him in my head and I couldn't stop crying.

"Don't you get it?" I said to him. "You're my Becca. Don't you know how this feels? Why would you lie to me? I feel so stupid."